One Month Update

June 18th, 2017. 

     




Wow!!! I can’t believe that my sweet girl is now a month old. It’s so crazy, it feels unreal. Especially since she came three weeks early! 

    
She already has so much personality. She loves taking baths, but hates changing clothes. She also loves to be involved. She uses her arms to push herself up and looks all around! She’s incredibly strong. Nolie is also able to roll onto her stomach! I didn’t know newborns could even do that! (It’s terrifying). One thing I love is that if she is fussy she generally will stop if you sing to her! 

     
This month started out a little rough with the induction (you can read her birth story here) and then her extra night in the hospital (you can read about that here). However, she’s almost back to her birth weight and the jaundice is basically gone!! This month has also seen her first bath, first doctors appointment, first play date with Mia, and first trip to Target. Also, today is her first Father’s Day! So it’s been a pretty busy month. 

   
Little Nolie loves cuddling. I think that’s what I’ll miss the most, how she can just lay on my chest and sleep! It’s the sweetest thing I’ve ever experienced. She hums when she sleeps and it’s heart melting. I can barely stand it! If I had to make a guess, I would say she sleeps probably seventeen hours a day, spends maybe four hours eating, and the last three hours just looking at everything and taking it in. 

    
She is generally a good sleeper, however we’ve definitely had four or five tough nights where she was up every hour! On the flip side- we’ve also had five or six great nights where I’ve gotten about four hours straight. I even had one night where I got a little over five straight hours! It was amazing. She likes to sleep with her hands by her face. Or, if she’s laying on my chest she wraps them up around my neck (well, what she can reach). Before she was born I read so many blogs about how swaddling your baby is super comforting to them. Nolie actually doesn’t like it! You can swaddle her, but if you try to wrap those arms up – almost nothing makes her more mad, or loud!! 

    
The cats are doing really well. Legalos will cuddle with me when I’m holding her, but only if she’s asleep. When she’s awake he keeps his distance. Appa, on the other hand, LOVES her. He’s constantly at her side. He sleeps below her little swing when she’s in it. Almost every day when I sit down to breastfeed after lunch he jumps up and cuddles right up to us. He’s actually cuddled up with the two of us as I write this!! He hates when she cries. He will run up when she starts crying as if to comfort her. It melts my heart. Also, Appa loves all of her things. He loves to sleep in her glider, constantly tries to steal her crib (don’t worry, we won’t let him), and lays on her play mat swinging his paws at the hanging toys. It’s precious. 

     
I love this little munchkin so much. I can’t imagine my life without her!! We have been so incredibly blessed. I can’t wait to see the little person she grows into!! 

Enfamil 

A little while ago I talked about how when I first found out I was pregnant that I made a TON of accounts with companies promising great advice, coupons, and free samples. I already talked about one, Similac, but I also signed up with a company called Enfamil. I found out I was pregnant the first day or two of October, and then I made this account sometime in mid October! I wasted no time.  However, I literally didn’t recieve anything via the mail until April 27th.  (They email me ALL the time though).
 


This sample box included $10 in Enfamil “checks” (two $5 coupons off of any Enfamil purchase over $5.00), a dozen of those coupons where you get something free but have to pay the shipping (I’ll have to do a post on that later, I’ve already tried a few!), a six pack of premade newborn formula bottles, two nipple attachments for previously mentioned prepare formula, a four pack sample of premeasured packages of infant formula, and a 12.4 oz can of their infant formula. Overall, that is a pretty generous gift box! I am excited to try this out for Nolie.  We have decided that occasionally doing formula will be great for us so that when we go out or I am gone someone else can feed her.  I’ve heard great things about Enfamil.


The premade little bottles are actually really nice.  I could see if we were having a day out or something how that could be really convenient! These are all milk and soy based, so that’s one thing I’ll have to watch- neither Michael nor I could do milk. Hopefully sweet Nolie will be able to! Anyways, even though it was months before we received anything, this was definitely a generous, completely free sample gift! Also, it’s actually good theybsont mail this out until closer to yore due date because of shelf life.  

The First Moment I Felt Like a Parent

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In every friend group there is the “mom” friend. The friend that has extra snacks, a bandaid, and two bottles of hand sanitizer in her purse at all times. This friend is me. I’m the friend who can’t help but fold your laundry if I see it out. (Not because I don’t think you can, it’s just a reflex). I am the friend who is forever the designated driver, who worries you’ll be kidnapped if you use dating apps, and who feels the need to cook you food if you seem sick.
However, now I am actually a “real” mom!! So many people have asked if I feel any different. If I feel like a parent. In some ways I feel the same! But in a lot of ways I do feel different. Several people have asked when I felt like a parent for the first time, when it hit me.
In my post about Nolie’s birth I mentioned that I was dishcharged a full day before her. This was because when they came in Friday night to run some tests they discovered she was jaundice. I’m not a doctor, and I really didn’t understand everything they said. However, basically her body had too much of something which can cause brain damages if levels get too high. They told us to strip her down to just a diaper and we put her in this plastic crib. She was laying on top of a UV light and there was one above her as well. She had to wear this little headgear to protect her eyes. Let me just tell you- Nolie hated it. Oh she hated it so much! The second you put her down she would begin to scream at the top of her lungs. It was non stop. It was the most heart wrenching sound I had ever heard.
Every three hours we could take her out and feed her, they gave me a max of thirty minutes each time. The second I pulled her to me she immediately stopped crying. She didn’t make a single sound. I could feel her whole body relax and she would immediately fall into a deep sleep, exhausted from the non stop wailing. I couldn’t even get her to stay awake to eat. (I ended up having to pump and Michael syringe fed her. She seriously was so worn out).
After several hours I found myself sitting in the dark in a rolling desk chair. Michael was trying to sleep. I had my head leaned up against the plastic with my hand slid under the light, trying to soothe her. This was the hardest moment. I knew if I just took her out and held her that her screams would silence. No one would know, the nurses wouldn’t be back for hours. However, I knew for her health she needed to be under that light.
I was suddenly reminded of a time I got in trouble with my dad. I don’t remember what for and I don’t remember what the punishment was other than I was devastated. I remember my dad looking at me with sad eyes and telling me that he didn’t want to, but he had to punish me for my own good. I think I had gotten grounded and I desperately wanted it to be lifted for a night for something that at the time felt incredibly important. I couldn’t comprehend why if he didn’t want to punish me and I didn’t want to be punished, why were we still talking about it!
The answer was that he was instilling in me a great understanding of consequences that has served me well every day of my life. He taught me to trust his word – whether he promises to take me to the movies or that if I missed curfew I would be punished. He had to play an un-fun role so that I could grow.
Sometimes being a good parent means you don’t get to be your kid’s friend and that’s okay. Sometimes being a parent means that you have to follow through with something, even if it breaks your heart because the most important thing is the long term physical and moral development of your child.
Listening to my brand new baby scream with such vigor absolutely broke my heart. I just cried and cried because it felt like I could feel her fear and pain. I have never felt more helpless. I knew I could short term fix it in a second, but I couldn’t do that. She was under that light for 23 hours and I’ve never been so emotionally spent. It took everything in me to leave her laying there screaming. I think that is the first time I truly felt like a parent.

Similac Membership Review

When I first found out I was pregnant I immediately signed up for every baby club or free benefit option posibble.  It was all so exciting!! I signed up online for a membership with a company called Similac on November 6th. I promptly forgot all about it until December 1st when I received a Similac membership card in the mail. That was all that was sent however, so I quickly forgot about it again.  Besides that the membership basically allows you to enter codes on product you’ve bought. Well I haven’t bought any of their product!

(Similac is a company that makes formula, which I have zero use for right now.  One, because my baby was unborn. Two, because I didn’t know if we were going to have to use formula. Finally, three, because I didn’t even know if our baby would be able to use this formula!) 

However, on April 24th our first “perk” package arrived! It was a cute box with two samples of their formula as well as a few coupons.  It was a cute little surprise.  The formula won’t expire for some time, so I put it up in the kitchen cabinet with Nolie’s bottles.  I’ll have to update this post later on if she likes it! 


Goodbye to Billy Goat Cafe 

I can’t believe today marked my very last day working behind the bar at Billy Goat Coffee Cafe. I started there as a high school student back in 2012 … and boy has my life changed since!! Next weekend I graduate from Trevecca Nazarene University, and then in a few weeks I’m having a sweet baby girl. It just doesn’t seem real.       

       

Even though I’m so excited for the crazy, new adventures to come, it’s also sad. I’m so thankful for the community I have found. I’m grateful for the families I’ve gotten to know and the relationships I have formed. I’m grateful for the emotional moments I’ve gotten to be a part of, for the laughter I’ve shared, and for every minute that made me who I am today. 

      

When I first starting working here in 2012 I would have never guessed that I would meet my husband inside. I wouldn’t have guessed that I would work there through three sets of owners. I wouldn’t have guessed I was going to find a family in the regulars I got to know. I never would have guessed how hard it would be to leave either, but here we are. Goodbye BG. You’ve changed my life forever. Thank you everyone who made it so special!! It truly feels like leaving a home.  

     


//Tank: Old Navy Maternity // Maternity Jeans: Target // Sandals: Old Navy 

Nolie’s Nursery 

I can’t believe this week puts us at only seven weeks away from meeting our baby girl!! (Well, according to her “guess date”). Everything is basically ready and now all I can do is wait!! Meanwhile, her sweet nursery is only missing one thing- her!!

I have put a lot of thought and meaning into decorating it and I just can’t wait. I hope she can feel the love.  In case you missed it, we had a total blast restoring my childhood dresser, creating a matching mirror, and putting together a little craft to hang! We also have a piece hanging from our wedding above her bed!

//Changing Pad Cover: Little Unicorn (it can also be found at Spearmint LOVE, where you get free shipping & 10% off your first order)!

// Sheets: Little Unicorn  (it can also be found at Spearmint LOVE, where you get free shipping & 10% off your first order)!

// Ballerina: Target // Pillow: Target // Elephant: Target



I am so so excited to meet this little angel. She is all I can think about! I am going crazy with anticipation! 

The Southern of Nashville

Last weekend Michael, Steph, Virginia, and I went and had brunch downtown. Michael has been begging try out the brunch at The Southern. I am really not a breakfast girl so i’ve been putting it off. However, with two other breakfast lovers in the house that weekend I decided it was finally time to try it! Michael was of course, beyond happy.

The Southern is located on Third Ave South. I was worried about parking (I really hate parking downtown), but there is complimentary valet for customers! That was so smart of them. It made it so convenient! Another convenience factor is you can make reservations ahead of time, so no wait line. (I seriously would make a reservation if you can! We saw a ton of people waiting for tables).

The atmosphere itself was cute. I loved the decor and the waitstaff was incredibly friendly for 10am. We all ordered a variety of things from the brunch menu so that everyone could try each other’s food. Michael tried the Steak and Biscuit Benedict, I ordered the Hot Cakes, and then we also got an appetizer called S.O.S.- Two buttermilk biscuits with country ham gravy. Steph and Gia ordered Chocolate Chip Hot Cakes to split, then Gia got the Southern Fried Egg Sandwich, and Steph got Crab Cake Hash. Everyone seemed to love everything. I know my Hot Cakes were fabulous… I literally scrapped the plate clean!


The wait wasn’t too bad either. The only less than great thing was the bathrooms. They have the weirdest sinks ever! There is no basin, it’s just like a slightly tilted piece of marble. I understand the concept. The water is just supposed to run to the back of the marble where there is a drain. However, really just water and soap is flying everywhere. Also, I’m so short and my belly is so huge that I was having to press up against the counter to reach the faucet, getting my shirt seriously wet. Stylish in theory, but not the most functional sink i’ve ever seen.

Overall, I would definitely recommend trying it! I’ve had lunch there before and it was fabulous, but I have a feeling Michael will want to go back for brunch soon!